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Well I found temporary work at the state fair. Not a great job, but any job is better than no job. Well thats be over for a week now and I am still looking for work. I just don't understand some places ,telling me I am over qualified. I looked at one lady and told her What? Over qualified? " I don't have any job and I can't pay the bills, I can't be over qualified I need money ,that should make me a perfect match." She then said I wouldn't be satisfied with the pay or the job duty's.  I then laughed and turned and walked out she didn't hear a thing I had said. Maybe I am speaking a different language and I dont know it.  Of  course she was about 20 years old and had know idea what starving means. To her it would be like not being able to have a starbucks. Which then she could run to daddy and he would give it to her. How do I know that ? I was that girl at one time. Sad but true. I was self centered and had money. Daddy's money!  Anytime something went wrong he would pick up the pieces and I would move on. Then I got an eye opener and this where I am today.  Not so self centered,I know what it means to go to bed hungery, and I know what self sacrifice is. And some sacrifice more than others to keep themselves and others from lossing it all.

Speaking of lossing it !!! 

 All I really know right now is that I am on the verge of wigging out, lossing my mind, as some people might say going postal. I seem to be banging my head on a brick wall. The nuber one thing that has been making me nuts is " Men if you see a woman walking down the road don't slow down ak how much. "We aren't all hookers!" It could be your wife, kids mom or your mom and would you like someone talking to them like that?.  I think not ! So please learn some manners and don't insult us.

These are my kids with santa last year!

I am a single mother of five kids. My kids dad was violent person.  After seven years he had knocked out most of my teeth. So I left him. I only have three in the front and some on the bottom. I am in need of dental work really bad. I keep gluing two of the three caps back in so I can at least talk. This has left me with really poor self esteem. 

I met a great man who is really good to me and my kids. I new it was to good to last, he ended up going to jail because of his bosses truck wasn't properly tagged and he had no log book. Then come to find out there is a hold on him for a probation violation that should have been cleared up but is still showing up. So I have know idea when he will be out. I couldn't pay my rent so I packed somethings in a storage unit and some in my van. A few days after that I lost my job. Well since I lost my job I haven't been able to pay it and the bill is 230 dollars. I will lose it on the 27th of this month. Then my van got towed with the rest of my stuff and I haven't found it yet. They all want paper work to identify it, All the paper work is in the van or in storage.

 In the mean time I had to give three of my kids to there dad and the two youngest to my mother. I couldn't drag them around looking for work and they need a stable place to be. I have no place to live and I cant see them not being in school. I have tried to stay at the shelters but most of them fill up fast. I have recently taken a job with the state fair. Its temporary but I figure its better than nothing.

 I still have my resume online at monster, carrer builder ,craigs list and several others. I have also applied for school to further my education. I have never been totally alone before. I just need a hand up not a hand out. I am willing to pay anyone back. Is there anyone who is willing to help me?